So here is how last week went... or atleast what I can rememeber...

fuck i can't, but i do know that minus friday night, for the last few days i've only got about 5-6 hours of sleep total, and for the next few days it'll be the same.

on friday i woke up after my 30 minute nap to my mom calling me and saying that her and my dad are coming into town to watch up brother-in-law's little brother graduate, and they are staying at my place. 1) i hate when people invited themselves over to along with out permision. 2) THERE IS NO WHERE FOR THEM TO FUCKING SLEEP!!!! like i said before i have a twin size bed, a futon, and the ground. i would prefer them not to come over. 3) It's the christmas holidays, the store is open longer, and i'm at work longer, I won't be home. it is just irritating. anywho, I go to theatre history, where we only have class for about 20 minutes because it's review day and everyone has been working on their paper to not do the review. speaking of the devil, totally got it turned in by 3:00ish. Yeah this is the first research paper I've written since middle school. I realized that little fact about a week ago, hints why i struggled a little with it. oh yeah, then went to work.

game plan for wednesday: Take my theatre history final, then go to the liquor store, then go home. take the longest nap of my life. go to the store and buy some beer to drink with my sister and her husband. drink myself retarded, and pass out in their guest bedroom.

game plan for thursday: wake up, and start drinking. I'm thinking start my day off with a tequilla sunrise since it has orange juice in it. and watch my new SNL season one box set. then drink with sonia and the girls that night, even though i'll be drunk by the time it starts, who knows, i might take a nap sometime during the day.

until then, pray for me, and DON'T CALL ME I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR YOU... that goes to everyone, not just one or two of you.

A week of hell!

I had the worst fucking week ever.

I hate east texas and not being able to take my HMO Blue Texas insurace anywhere!!! OMG I've had so much trouble with all the bull shit, and no one in this area taking my insurance. This is why I don't get sick. I've been sitting my my apartment for a week laying on my death bed wallowing in my own self pity praying for me to feel better. I have a bacterial infaction in my saliva glands, and it swelled up so bad that is looks like i have a double chin... not attractive, how am I supposed to get a boyfriend with a fat chin? I don't know... Today was the first day in a week that I did not take one pain pill, when I usually take about ten to fifteen by now, and it felt great. I totally had cabin fever and was dieing to get out of my apartment and have human contact. I went to the birdwell building on campus and fixed my schedule for next semester to take the class i dropped over summer II. Thank God I did, since I god sick and all. And then I ran into Aslan and talked to him a little bit. then I called Marissa, who I call my girlfriend, and we had a nice date today. We went to Lufkin and ate at Chillie's, saw The Devil Wears Prauda (good movie), and then we came home, and made some Stirfry for her fiance Kyle who works with me a Best Buy. Then we had a few drinks and played Life. I even called my lesbian lover, Sonia, on the phone and talked to her a little bit. It was a lovely evening to have. I think I'll go to bed now. Goodnight to all! I hope I really feel better by the weekend, I just want to swelling to go down.

That is all.

Peace out YO!

update on everything...

School: I'm hating my class, but it is almost over. Thanks to the help of my classmates, I'll pass the class with something better then a big "F".

Work: Everyone keeps quitting, so I'm getting promoted to a CS2. Translation: I'm hoping to get a raise, because i'll be doing more work, such as, reutrns, exchanges, customer service, looking up reciepts, service plans, and other random crap. I'm happy about it, but yet disappointed at the same time. I kept getting passed up for it, and then I get thrown in to it because everyone else is quitting and they don't have anyone else to put there. So that is why I'm not as excited as I should be.

Birthday: My birthday party was great! I had such a fun time. There was a good turn out, and I didn't even really get to talk to everyone as long as I wanted to. Funnier side: my toilet started messing up and everyone had to go across the street to the theatre house (with jason and guy's permission that is) just to go to the bathroom. Adam surprised me at my front door before people really started showing up, and I was so happy to see him. I can't wait for that fucker to get back in the fall so we can do our little dinner parties and shit. I had two other friends come visit me too... Not a whole lot went on, they slept practically the whole weekend, so there wasn't a lot of hanging out going on. Why are you going to visit someone and sleep the entire time you are at their place? I don't understand either. I'm not pissed off about it, but I am annoyed that it happened, and not really an apology about it either. Oh well, their waste of gas for another bed to sleep in.  I'm surprised still that the only call I recieved from any of my houston friends was from carlo... that useless guy. i heart you fool! To the other slackers... shame on you.

Love: I'm almost giving up hope on one person, but oh well, maybe it is for the better. This will make you smile... Yesterday I was walking back with my classmate Amanda to class for our final, and we run into her friend, Phillip (cute, nice smile, drives a motorcycle, has money, single, not an asshole), well we chatted with him and then headed off to our class, minding that we are walking opposite directions away from each other.  After our final Amanda and April came over to my place for a little bit.  Amanda says how she and Phillip hook the other up with their friends. I said, "Hello, single, lonely, cute, fun" pointing at myself. She calls him and talks a little bit and says how she is at my place, and he responds to "The girl with the hole in her pants?" The pair of pants I was wearing has a huge hole in them... but in the back. So I got a kick that he looked back and checked us out while we were walking away. Honestly, I'm tired of dicking around. I just want to have a nice serious relationship. I'm not asking for marriage, or kids, or even a pet to share. The only guys you ever seem to find in this damn town either want a one night stand or a ring on the finger, isn't there a grey area I can find just one decent guy.  One that won't cheat on me, use me, or make me feel like a totaly idiot? Oh well, you win some you lose some.

Home: I've been having trouble sleeping at night. I'm still not used to living on my own i guess. The only times I can sleep the whole night through is if I stay up uber late working on something and then just pass out at like 4am or if I've had a few drinks and pass out at 2am.  So I've been cleaning out my fridge from all of the left over stuff from my party. Last night I went to bed at midnight, woke up at 3am, fell back asleep at 9am, woke up at noon with my dad calling. I would have to say that these are not healthy sleeping patterns.  I get lonely by myself in my apartment, and would love to get a phone call from you guys. especially the ones that actually read this whole long entry.  I don't post often, so thanks for caring enough to sit though this hour long reading material. lol.

That is all i will say for now.

Peace out, YO!